So here I am

Finally! A couple of months ago a friend of mine started blogging. A first for her. At first I didn't think much of it: a blog? Really? Isn't that kind of outdated? You see, I am a graduate of Media, Information and Technoculture at UWO. I blogged before it was cool and mainstream. I blogged because I was a dorky media student - personally and for different classes. I blogged about student life, dating, and many things that were important to me at the time. By the time I was in my early 20's I had forgotten about and abandoned my blogs, so hearing this friend was now starting a blog was a bit lost on me.

When I was pregnant with A, my oldest son, I rediscovered blogging in a new light. Many moms nd moms-to-be use blogs to share their experiences. I found most of those blogs too self-centered and not easily relatable, so blogging didn't recapture my attention then.

Fast forward a couple of years and a couple of kids and here I am. Why now? Well, a few reasons.

First, I've always loved to read and write. I love to take in information and I like sharing tht information and my opinions. While I was in school I always had an outlet, and at times reading and writing were more of a chore than a joy. In my professional life I have some opportunity to express myself through writing but it's limited, and it's something I've missed the past few years.

Second, I now have a goal in mind when it comes to blogging. I am the mother of a 2 year old and 4 month old. Life is busy. I have never been a balanced person, I'm more of an 'all or nothing' type person. I am passionate and focused, at times to the extreme. These things don't really jive with motherhood. Well, they do in a way: I am a focused and passionate mother, but what's happened is that my 'all or nothing' stance has left little room for anything else except being a good mom, step-mom and 'wife' (technically we aren't married). Focusing on anything while children, a dog, hubby and life is zooming on around me is nearly impossible. Believe me, I am not saying I have lost myself or am looking for fulfillment. I am gloriously happy as a mother: it is truly the most fulfilling thing I'll ever do. Perhaps it's my love of my family and love of motherhood that makes balancing it with other things difficult.

So we come to reason number three: in order to be a good mom, I need to find a little balance. Although I love my family with every inch of my being, sometimes I'm at my wits end. Sometimes my patience isn't what it should be. I've realized I'm not as good at multitasking as I'd thought. I can have it all, just not at the same time (that's a difficult one for me).

And the last reason: my friend's blog has been funny, interesting and relevant. So much so that it's changed my perspective of blogging. Thanks LH.

This blog will hopefully serve a couple of purposes: give me an outlet, and will share my stories of what works and doesn't work when it comes to balancing my life.

Cheers.